Psalm 27:13-14 I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
We had a rough couple of days recently. It happens when you are living with someone with a brain disorder. Things will go quite well for a while, then he has a crisis of some sort. Something small like a word taken the wrong way or something large like a confrontation with one of his friends can be the catalyst. It’s frustrating and sometimes frightening when it happens, but we know that it is only a temporary setback.
In all of this I can be confident of one important thing – the goodness of God. He’s not good just when He’s having a good day. He’s good all of the time because that’s who He is. I don’t have to wait until I go to heaven to see His goodness. Scripture says I can see His goodness in the land of the living.
I believe that God heals, and I always pray that for my stepson. I am also grateful that God has given doctors the wisdom to treat brain disorders and scientists the knowledge to understand what is going on in the brain so they can develop medications to treat them. Even so, I know that God has the power to heal, so I continue to pray for that miracle.
In the meantime, I can be confident that God is at work in me and in my family. Even if I can’t always see it with my eyes, I can be sure of it in my spirit.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning says this in one of her poems:
Earth’s crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
But only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.
I can choose to see God in the burning bush, or I can sit around it and pick blackberries. When Moses saw the burning bush, God told him to take off his shoes because it was holy ground. Wherever God is at work is a holy place.
So I make a choice to acknowledge God’s holiness, and I can be strong as I wait to see God’s goodness in the here and now.